Wednesday, 22 October 2014

temporary // permanent

  currently being at the low tide of my life now, where my relationship, friendships, and kinships are all in a mess so yea, im kinda on a really bad mood recently and to people that ive offended,
 im sorry i dont mean to be harsh.

honestly, i hadnt really thought of such things ever before. my concept of life was just "live in the moment". i never once consider what would actually take place next, i just say what i want, do what suits me best, at that juncture.  

  {differentiating what matters most.}

so thinking deeper last night when i was wide awake at 3a.m , trying to get some sleep i decided to be more positive to think such 
whatever we're experiencing now is all temporary and probably wouldnt matter a few years down the road, or better still, we might even hardly remember it. 

just forget it, let it go and carry on living, stop dwelling over the past, bc even if you cry a river due to a what seems impactful at that moment, you cant change anything, so does it apply to that crying cant solve anything. so why not get your sh*t together and move on. like they say, life goes on.
like i mean, those people you think are extremely important now, probably would forget you or not matter to you anymore soon enough when we graduate and stuff. for instance if you did something embarrassing in public. do you think any passer-by would actually recall that incident in a few weeks time? (bad e.g but, whatever)

things changes quickly, and mostly are short-lived. so instead of being bothered by the things that are a chapter or less in your book of life, why not spend those time on relevant materials or things/ people that could bring you further in life. and that, are the things i consider permanent as they pave the way to how youre going to live for the rest of your life, and these, are the things that truly matter.

bc at some point of time you will realize you have been doing too much for someone/ something, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. leave them alone. walk away. its not that youre giving up, its not like you shouldnt try. its just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. what is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, will never be, so let it go, if its worth to be permanent in your life, it would be, eliminate the temporaries that are dragging you behind.

and as to obstacles or people who are bringing you down, conquer them, defeat them and come back stronger. its part and parcel of life that youre bound to meet the devil not once, not twice, but a lot, multiple times. sometimes you might even be struggling to overcome them, or they might even overwhelm you encouraging you to give up, but you just gotta stay strong. 

going a little off topic, 
do what makes you truly happy in life, do all the things you enjoy but also be mature enough to not go pass the limit. 
as for me, doing art and traveling are the things that i enjoy most. sure thing that i can draw, paint or do whatever i want, but i definitely cant pursue my dream of being a lone wanderlust at this age but i could wait. wait til i reach the suitable age to travel and explore the wonders that havent been seen. 

this may come off sounding overrated or basic but really, you only have one life to live, so live life to the fullest your way, and the right way. do what makes you happy bc in the end, what really matters is you. its just you, no one else. gain experiences in your life that would stay in your mind, heart and soul forever. now thats for sure, permanent. 

and permanent things > temporary events/ downfall (:

so get over it duh.